MIA and weekend roundups

Hello and happy Friday!  Sorry I have been MIA recently, there are a couple reasons as I mentioned I would share in my last post.  One, I have been busy at work as well as spending time with friends and family, and two, seeing someone new has taken a good chunk out of my evening free time for blogging 🙂 As much as I would love to gush about this new man in my life (there is SO much to say, too!), I want to keep this giddyness to myself for a bit 🙂  I can say this- I haven’t been this happy with a guy in years!  Anyway,  I have a lot to catch up on but don’t have much time this week either!  I am leaving to Europe TODAY and spent all my free time this past week packing, with the man, and attending a US vs Brazil soccer game!!

Awesome club level seats!

Last weekend I spent (sick) with my mom at VA beach.  Nothing too exciting went on- I napped, killed a bunch of bugs, got some sun, shopped, and vegged with my mom.  It was great!  The weekend prior I went with a few girlfriends from college to visit another that just finished getting her Masters at ECU in Greenville. I’m so proud of her! I had such a fun weekend with my loves in NC.

Love these girls

It was a relaxing/crazy/fun-filled/fro-yo-packed/giggle-infused weekend of awesome times and great memories.  There was lots of fun wedding talk for my friend C getting hitched in October, a stop at a new froyo joint everyday for my addiction, some mechanical bull riding (!!), cute cowboys, fun dancing at local bars, and evenings of giggle fits!

Its an addiction 🙂

The rest of my free time has been spent working out, hanging with my roommate, or spending time with the new man 🙂 Oh, and I have given up trying to be paleo full time.  This weekend I finally gave in and had some sweets I bought for my mom- real tiramisu from an Italian café- SOO SOO good!  deprivation sucks!  I also bought a box (gluten free though!) of cinnamon rice chex- I thought it was a good compromise for cinnamon life (which I really wanted).  Paleo be damned, carbs rule!!  Ill be doing a post soon about my experience doing paleo for about a month.  Needless to say I saw nothing crazy happen- no real weight loss, no amazing energized feeling, etc.  Yet again I feel like I need a push to help me lose these last few pounds.  Starting in June- I will be balls-to-the-wall with workouts (serious) and eating right!
So that’s all you get for today folks!  I am spending the day traveling to EUROPE with one of my best friends S!!  This trip has been a long time coming- we actually were stuck in Paris for a week during the Iceland volcano eruption a couple years ago.  Yeah yeah, spare me on the ‘Oh must’ve been sooo hard to be stuck in the city of Love.’  Well, when you already saw everything you planned to see in your original allotted time, are stressed watching the only english-speaking channel that only spoke of our doom of being stuck in Europe, and realize its a hella-expensive city to be stranded in…you’ll change your mind on how fantastic it is, too.

Not amused with Paris (2010)

Did you have a good Memorial Day weekend?  Any fun vacations coming up?
Rock on Lovers 🙂  Wish me travel luck!!
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Opposite of Content

So this is a bleak post and the reason I haven’t blogged in a couple of days.  Last week was rough.  No, worse than rough.  It was a roller coaster of emotions and stress I don’t care to experience again anytime soon.  A multitude of things occurred last week, not all of which I will share, that have really tested my sanity.  First was the three year anniversary of my fathers suicide.  I really didn’t think much of it, knowing that it was more of the anxiety leading up to ‘the day’ that was stressful.  What was actually stressful was my mom.  Don’t get me wrong, I love my mother and would not be here without her unwavering support during our shared trauma, but she and I have such different grieving and coping paths that makes communication between us difficult.  She is still very much in a moping and dwelling stage, saying things like ‘at my age I never thought I’d be alone, a widow, I guess I didn’t love him enough’.  I’m sorry if this makes me a terrible daughter and person, but its just pathetic.  As I mentioned in my last post, I have definitely ‘moved on’ a bit, while my mother refuses.  She thinks she will be ‘letting him go entirely’ which isn’t the case.  Its just another step in moving on in her life to a better, happier place.   But being the stubborn woman she is, she literally refuses to be happy- and there are moments she is happy, the will then force herself to feel guilty and revert to moping.  As part of my ‘growth’ in the 3rd year of grief I make an effort to try and accept her way of grieving, but sometimes I just need to step away and let her do her thing, just as I’m sure she does the same with me.

Next on my blah unhappy list- my weight.  Some days I am completely content with the way I look.  Ok, that’s not true.  Not in the slightest.  I am happy with how far I’ve come, but I cannot seem to lose these last 10 pounds.  I got pretty close to my goal weight, but only after severe calorie restriction and crazy cardio sessions.  I was happy with my weight, yes, but not happy in life. I was cranky and moody all the time.  Right now I am frustrated that after a month of doing insanity not only have I not lost any weight, I have gained weight (barely a pound, but even the smallest amounts are a lot to a 5’1 person). Also my clothes feel tighter, not any more loose.  What gives?  I’ve read message boards about calorie amounts may be to blame (I was eating below the recommended amount for insanity), as well as muscle swelling/DOMS affect.  I don’t think muscle swelling should still be an issue while in recovery week, and I really really hate how my body feels.  Squishy, blobby, and just not comfortable.  I do not like what I see in the mirror and I want to give up on insanity entirely.  But I will stick it out, as many of the message boards say many people like me didn’t see results and to just keep it up.  I know diet it’s the majority of the plan to see the results I want, but I just don’t know what my body truly needs.  Well, last Thursday I had an appointment to get my metabolism tested by a RD/nutritionist.  Well, I wasn’t too thrilled with the results.  It really wasn’t anything I didn’t already know.  It was interesting to see how much I burned (a little higher than normal, which damnit should be the case since I work out frequently), and to east x amount to lose weight.  She did mention to keep track of my calorie intake on the weekends (which I don’t normally), and after just a few days of really focusing and sticking to intuitive eating, I have lost a couple pounds!  Now I just need to focus and keep my determination to finish off the second month of insanity that I started yesterday.

Easter weekend recap- slept, vegged (healthily), and spent time with mom.  I guilty spent no time with my niece and nephew.  I just didn’t have the patience last weekend and just wanted to spend time with my mom.  But enough chat!  I promised a recipe…but to make up for my lack of posting I will give you TWO!!  Yes I know, you are just tickled with excitement about this 🙂

First is a recipe I found from Breakfast to Bed.  I LOVE Twix, but they are SOOO bad for you.  All kinds of sugar, saturated fats, etc.  So when I found this healthy recipe for peanut butter twix (because everything is better with peanut butter!) I just HAD to make it!!

Super Yummy and Healthy PB Twix Bars adapted from Breakfast to Bed

Ingredients

  • 3 cups oats
  • 1/2 cup egg whites
  • 3/4 cup unsweetened almond milk
  • 3 tbsp chia
  • 1/2 cup crunchy peanut butter
  • 1 tbsp vanilla
  • powder stevia to taste
  • 1 very ripe banana (my fav way to eat them all spotty!)
  • 1ish cup of PB2 made to a paste
  • 1 cup dark chocolate chunks

Instructions

Preheat oven to 350F

Combine almond milk and chia and set aside for 10mins or so until you get the chia gel affect

Mash the heck out of that already uber ripe banana and it with combine chia milk mix, oats, whites, crunchy pb, stevia, vanilla.

Mix until well combined

Mix and mash it up!

Spread into a pammed (greased) cake pan and bake for around 25 minutes until edges are slightly browned.  Once cooled, spread the creamy PB2 on top, freeze, then melt the chocolate chips and add that glorious layer on top of the PB.

Chill and cut those suckers and devour.  I made an even healthier version with just a couple chocolate chips on top instead of the layer of chocolate, because sometimes I like more PB than chocolate.  Yes, I’s weird.
Enjoy!
Next recipe will be posted tomorrow…because I am a tease and quite frankly you wont want to miss the story of my adopting a stray…goldfish 🙂
Also I will have my first rec soccer game tomorrow- wish me luck!!
Rock on lovers 🙂

Sunday Inspiration and Treadmill HIIT

Hello and happy Sunday everyone!!  Hope you had a fantastic weekend!  Mine wasn’t too shabby. I had a pre-Valentines weekend celebration with my momma.  I bought her tickets to her favorite movie/play/musical at a dinner theater- Fiddler on the Roof!  I’m not usually a fan of plays, but this was fantastic!  And my mom enjoyed it SO much!  I also got her a pair of earrings (you’ll hear a lot about me buying jewelry for my mom; since my dad has passed I have to make up for it!) that she lost and she was SO surprised!  She couldn’t stop smiling all night!  I love when I can make my momma happy 🙂

I spent Super Bowl Sunday doing not-so-Super-Bowl things.  I hit the grocery store and Wal-Mart, and then did the usual Sunday chores and gym session.  Don’t get me wrong, I love me some football.  But none of my teams are in and it’s a school night, so I’d rather just relax and maybe flip to it every now and then while watching a Sex and the City marathon!

Speaking of Sunday workouts- I’ve been really well with Body Rock, but since I haven’t been doing well diet-wise (damn you snacks!) I decided today it all changes!  I bought all good food and super healthy snacks for work this week, and I plan to write out my workouts and check them off as I complete them.  Although I may workout a lot, I realize that’s only a small percentage if I want to see real change.  I have to stick to healthy eating, portion control, and NO over-snacking!  I do confess I’ve been a bit preoccupied with my body and weight. Whereas many of my friends have the uber-metabolism I would kill for, I was blessed with the fat gene.  Plus, my ‘fun-size’ stature makes any weight gain noticeable on my tiny frame, forcing me to work extra hard for the physique I want.  But I am determined!!  So my plan this week is to have the mindset that I can do this, I can change my body, I can get fit and healthy and be confident!!

You CAN Do This!!

Back to the workout for today.  One good thing about working out on Super Bowl Sunday- a gym all to myself!!  Today I did a HIIT (high intensity interval training) treadmill routine from One Fit Foodie.  It was killer!  I topped it off with a 5 minute ‘cool down’ on the elliptical and a Body Rock workout.  Needless to say I was super sweaty!

I hope that if you find yourself worried about not hitting the gym as hard or as often as you wanted, slipped at family gatherings and had one to many pigs in a blanket, and are lacking confidence in the awesomeness that is you that you realize, too, that you CAN do anything you put your mind to!  You are strong, sexy and confident, and with a little determination can reach your goals!!  Make yourself proud!!