First off, thank you for support on my decision to end the Whole30. Sometimes it’s hard to remember to take care of yourself when you are down. I appreciate all your kind words so much! You guys rocks 🙂 (ps check out my blog roll, its been updated! Currently updating recipe page, too!)
I wanted to do a follow up on that post but focus more on stress and how that effects so much more than we realize. Even though I ended my Whole30, I still admire others for continuing their efforts to eliminate allergies and find what works best for their body. I never had allergies or adverse effects from certain foods (sugar, gluten, dairy, etc), but I felt I did gain an advantage by cutting these things out. I don’t crave sweets or carb-rich things as much and I listen better to my body’s hunger cues. I also still read and very much respect so many things Dallas and Melissa at Whole 9 Life write about. This post is especially interesting – explaining the lies we tell ourselves about living a ‘healthy’ lifestyle. I pinned like crazy for to motivate myself when I joined pinterest and saw these fitspo images:
I convinced myself everything these images said was true- people use ‘obsessed’ for people that are dedicated. Rest days are for lazy people. No excuses. Discipline. Hard work. It was a vicious cycle I lived in for a long time.
But you know what? None of this obsessing and ‘hard work’ did much to change my physique or my mental health. It was only when I severely restricted and worked out for hours did I see ‘results.’ But it was not something I could maintain. It was a huge stress on my body and mind. What I thought was a healthy dedication to living a healthy lifestyle was just a form of stress that I became addicted to. Yes, the stress was addictive. I was not ‘addicted to chia seeds, greek yogurt, and PB2’ or ‘addicted to running x miles’ or ‘addicted to the worked-out-till-I-wanted-to-pass-out feeling.’ Like Hartwig says, “People now mistake stress for purpose, hence its addictive nature.” This stress addiction became my purpose.
Along this healthy journey I feel I have lost my initial purpose for wanting to stay healthy. I always told people it was to help ward off a multitude of genetic diseases like cancer, heart disease, and depression. But it morphed into an obsession with trying to get skinny.
I rationalized all my food restricting and over-exercising by saying I was dedicated to a healthy lifestyle.
I would still like to gain more strength and change my physique, but in a healthy manner. This means real food, less-to-no processed foods, exercise that I want to do and plenty of rest. I also plan to keep stretching, doing yoga, and meditation techniques (mainly for sleep). All of these I hope will help keep stress at bay and help me find balance.
With that I would like to announce that (drum roll please!) I signed up for Crossfit elements classes starting in February! I am so excited for a new challenge! This box is super close to my house and has yoga twice a week! I can’t wait to start!
Question: Do you ever feel like you’ve been stuck doing something unhealthy? How did you cope?
Rock on lovers 🙂